Sometimes I know instinctively that something doesn’t feel right, in this case it hasn’t felt right for the last unnumbered quantity of years. Now, Jost, just like the last time I discovered you at a Melbourne conference and spoke to you about drugs and their inherent effects on the body and behaviours at a St.kilda hotel, I am feeling a somewhat shocking yet strangely familiar sense that my energy is being drained through my own choices to participate in a certain activity that seems so normal to myself, and yet is so frowned upon by society (and yet apparently so practised by the same behind closed doors).

The easy choice is right there. Once seen, once voyuered, The primal need to see things through to completion, as you put it, is so overwhelming that is seems irresitable. But I felt that way about Mary Jane once . And it’s been a long time since MJ and I really had anything but a fleeting relationship. So, maybe when I am ready the teacher really does appear. Oldest cliche saying, but I love a good cliche when it helps.
Thanks for a non judgemental, eye opening, state the obvious, no-one-wants-to-talk about-article about a seemingly harmless little thing both guys and gals have perpetuated beyond their own control that really could be the biggest energy drain and unseen, taboo and un-talked about problem that may be facing us today in regards to out sexuality as a race. I know I have ranted but really, there’s been so much silence about the topic that I’m sure every person involved could talk for years if given the chance…Here’s to seeking the truth, and my own truth and yours, and I hope everyone who reads this and doesn’t read it, but somehow, finds that what they are doing may be pure pleasure at the time, but may not serve their interests, or their wives, girlfriends, families, families of the people involved in what they are watching, etc etc. There are literally millions of people involved in this industry, and there is a lot of good in it. But by the gods, right now, it is out of control…and I have played a part in that (for research of course).

Best.

Ant

it seems the fundamental cause of these kinds of things is a disconnection from the universal chi as well as a lack of understand of how to work with one’s own nature. some of us are more yin, some of us are more yang, and that is perfect. the problem arises when:

a. we dont understand or know how to understand our own nature
b. authority figures or the media tell us we “should” be a certain way
c. we lack the tools to maximize our true nature ie. various forms of exercise or meditation

thanks for writing this and for bringing this awareness forward.